So am I a Type A workaholic?
Jun. 18th, 2008 05:44 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
growyourwingsI don't think I am. But I do get obsessed with work--because despite all my bitching--I really do like it and it's where I get a lot of my "strokes".
I'm wondering about myself because--tomorrow is my birthday. And NO I'm not saying that for attention--in RL I'm not even telling anyone who doesn't already know - i.e., family. I feel uncomfortable with too much RL attention. But LJ isn't RL and I can "hide" pretty easily if I want to.
So anyway...I'm feeling lame and a bit of a workaholic or something because I'm feeling GUILTY because I'm taking tomorrow afternoon and Friday off of work because of my birthday. I had no real plans for tomorrow specifically because Hubby has a mandatory class he has to take tomorrow evening. He's taking me to the beach on Friday--so that's okay--np. I just wanted to not be AT WORK for at least part of the day on my birthday so I could, well, basically do nothing but wallow in SPN-related activities. I just found out my daughter, her boyfriend, and my mother will be coming over tomorrow evening to make me a dinner--that's cool. But again--feeling guilty about leaving work at 2pm.
I had had a doctor's appointment this past Monday that I had to schedule a month in advance (for my knee) -- then my directing sponsor required something on Monday so I decided to reschedule. The only other time slot available within the next two weeks was 4pm on my birthday. In downtown--13 miles away from where I live. But I decided this deliverable for the sponsor was more important so I made the change.
All week I kept going back and forth about again rescheduling--even if it was 2 weeks in future--because I SO did not want to be in downtown at 4pm on the day of the birthday -- seeing a doctor! I kept talking myself out of rescheduling. And you know? Finally I said screw it. I reschedule at a drop of a hat for my sponsor--but not for myself? And then later this week when they wanted to schedule more meetings for Friday that my hubby was taking me to the beach for--I felt GUILTY for saying I couldn't do it and they'd have to pick another time.
I need to get my priorities straightened out.
I just had a thought. I don't think it's Type A personality. I think it's that damn "I'm a Good and Responsible Girl and Want Everyone to Like Me' syndrome that so many of us females grew up with. Dammit. I need to bring out my inner bitch more often at work.
And I'm not even f-locking this. So THERE work! (Not that anyone at work will see this--but still I should get some points.)
I'm wondering about myself because--tomorrow is my birthday. And NO I'm not saying that for attention--in RL I'm not even telling anyone who doesn't already know - i.e., family. I feel uncomfortable with too much RL attention. But LJ isn't RL and I can "hide" pretty easily if I want to.
So anyway...I'm feeling lame and a bit of a workaholic or something because I'm feeling GUILTY because I'm taking tomorrow afternoon and Friday off of work because of my birthday. I had no real plans for tomorrow specifically because Hubby has a mandatory class he has to take tomorrow evening. He's taking me to the beach on Friday--so that's okay--np. I just wanted to not be AT WORK for at least part of the day on my birthday so I could, well, basically do nothing but wallow in SPN-related activities. I just found out my daughter, her boyfriend, and my mother will be coming over tomorrow evening to make me a dinner--that's cool. But again--feeling guilty about leaving work at 2pm.
I had had a doctor's appointment this past Monday that I had to schedule a month in advance (for my knee) -- then my directing sponsor required something on Monday so I decided to reschedule. The only other time slot available within the next two weeks was 4pm on my birthday. In downtown--13 miles away from where I live. But I decided this deliverable for the sponsor was more important so I made the change.
All week I kept going back and forth about again rescheduling--even if it was 2 weeks in future--because I SO did not want to be in downtown at 4pm on the day of the birthday -- seeing a doctor! I kept talking myself out of rescheduling. And you know? Finally I said screw it. I reschedule at a drop of a hat for my sponsor--but not for myself? And then later this week when they wanted to schedule more meetings for Friday that my hubby was taking me to the beach for--I felt GUILTY for saying I couldn't do it and they'd have to pick another time.
I need to get my priorities straightened out.
I just had a thought. I don't think it's Type A personality. I think it's that damn "I'm a Good and Responsible Girl and Want Everyone to Like Me' syndrome that so many of us females grew up with. Dammit. I need to bring out my inner bitch more often at work.
And I'm not even f-locking this. So THERE work! (Not that anyone at work will see this--but still I should get some points.)
