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1. What are your reasons for having a LJ?

Um? SPN? Like I don't spam and obsess about it completely enough?

This answer is now going to degrade into TMI about my slide to the dark side. So feel free to read on to #2. (And I'm definitely going to have put all this under a cut, because TL:DR anyone?

Actually I first came to LJ by googling for LOST fanfic.

I'd very randomly gotten addicted to Original Series StarTrek fanfic--After being a Star Trek fan since almost birth, I'd only just a few years ago discovered fanfic by one day entering "I'm bored" into Google. That randomly led me to some Star Trek sites, which led me to something called "P/Q". It was a story about Picard and Q.

I liked Picard and I liked Q. So I thought, "Cool!". And then I thought WTF? I'd accidently discovered "slash" (and yes I googled that term.) I read on because A) again WTF? and B) Um, kinda hot. So I exhausted P/Q stories (which weren't that common) and heard of "K/S". Which? Double WTF???? Kirk and Spock were my absolute IDOLs growing up. Their friendship is just EPIC! How could *ANYONE* even consider something like "K/S".

Um.

But I was addicted to slash by then and I really wanted something new to read. So. Um. I tried one. Or two. Or more.

So I then consumed about 30 years of slash history in about a year.

So I thought, "what now?"

Well I was currently getting absorbed into LOST (which is *totally* the fault of iTunes/iPods BTW--so YOU KNOW WHAT???!!! This *whole* FANDOM addiction I have? Including SPN? Is so TOTALLY the fault of Apple! Should I sue?)

Ahem. Anyway, back to the point. I was into LOST. And I thought Sayid was hot. And Sawyer was hot. I bet there was other slash out there (little did I know). I bet *someone* has thought of writing Sawyer/Sayid.

That eventually led me to Zelda and back to SPN (see my previous TL:DR post about my slide in SPN addiction.)

Okay hopefully I can be more brief with the remaining questions.

2. What do you do before bedtime?

~~Obsessively~~ Read my LJ flist. Including reading fanfic as good-night bedtime stories. But yet I *don't* dream about the boys in general. I've mused before somewhere on LJ that I think this is because I'm so absorbed with SPN and boys during my waking hours that my brain r~~efuses~~ doesn't need to re-process all the SPN stuff. *stupid brain*

3. What will your dream wedding be like?

Already married. I never really thought about "dream weddings". Or weddings at all when I was growing up. Tom boy, remember?

But our wedding was beautiful. Wouldn't change a thing. And the best part? Mr. GYW and our resulting mini-GYW's.

4. What is the city of your dreams and why?

Two cities.

1) Vienna, Austria. I spent 3 months in Germany and Austria during the summer of my freshman year of college. I was taking college courses and traveling with fellow college students from Oregon. We stayed in 3 cities throughout the course of the summer. At one point, I took a side trip with a few of the students to Vienna. I had a Euro-Rail pass, so I travelled by myself. I cannot remember how the other kids got there. But Vienna? OMG from the MOMENT I stepped off that train I was in love. I call Vienna my "Soul City." No idea why exactly. It just RESONATED within me. HUMMED somehow.

2) Ashland, OR. Home of the Oregon Shakespeare Festival. After my initial first fangirl experience as a child with Star Trek, I think it's safe to say that my second experience was as an obsessed fangirl of Shakespeare. When I was in sixth grade, my parents took me and my two brothers on a camping trip in southern Oregon. As a side trip they took us to see Merry Wives of Windsor at Ashland--which has a replica of the Globe Theatre. When we were told we were going to see a Shakespeare play, us kids groaned.

From the moment I saw the theatre, the musicians that warmed up the audience, and the play and actors themselves--OMG foreshadowing of future fangirl OCD. I returned when I was 16 with one or more girlfriend(s) and went back each summer to see all the plays for a week for about 8 years. I collected all the souvenir programs. We did the whole backstage tour thingy more than once. I fangirled and followed specific actors (Jean Smart was among them, along with many others I could name. I believe William Hurt even acted there once or twice.) I had no idea I was doing the "fangirl" thing at the time.

Anyway. Love, love, love Ashland.

5. Are you an introvert or extrovert?

Definitely, strongly INTROVERT to the max degree. I "act" like an extrovert to get along in the world. But it's so TOTALLY an act (and I shock people so frequently when they learn I'm an introvert and kinda shy, that I'm probably good at it.) It takes SO MUCH out of me to do this that I'm just exhausted when I get back to my home/room/whatever. And if I don't get alone time to offset the "together" time....well let's just say it's not pretty (remember Mr. Ugly graphic from yesterday?)

And it's so easy to be an extrovert online. And it's not tiring either. That's why I'm addicted.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?

Oh God. A SERIOUS question. One that requires some philosophical thinking. Um.

*thinks*

You know it's all a circle. Giving Love returns Love (even if it's from the universe in general or decades later (or lifetimes later?)) LOVE is the blessing. Both giving and receiving.

Thinky enough answer?

7. Do you trust easily?

Most DEFINITELY. And it takes FOREVER and an engraved invitation for me to lose that trust. I can count on one hand the times I've really lost trust in someone for good.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?

Leave them alone. I'm SO not about competing for someone OR taking away from someone else. Wrong, wrong, wrong. If you're in a committed relationship--it's a GOLDEN RULE for me that that's all it's about.

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?

Um? Remember Mr. Ugly again? Yeah *cough* work.

10. What is your best quality?

Boy I wish I could say creativity and imagination. Or vivacious living. Or living life to the max. Or *something* interesting. But honestly? It's reliability and trust. Oh--and I'm a very, very, very quick thinker. An intuitive thinker. Which I rely on very heavily but also can be a double-edge sword (I have to work to listen and not jump ahead of people.)

11. Is being tagged fun?

Never been officially tagged. *pouts* No really, doesn't bother me -- to tag or not to tag (that is the question. See Shakespeare above.)

12. How do you see yourself?

Staid. Not very interesting. And I don't say that to get attention and really I don't feel "bad" about that either. It's not really my goal to be interesting to people--so generally being normal and uninteresting doesn't bother me. But, on the flip side, I'm EXTREMELY attracted (and I don't mean physically or sexually) to unusual people. To "characters".

The more I think about this these days, I think I should have gone into theatre--but not to act. To work as a stage hand, or a stage manager or something. I LOVE being around performers and entertainers.

13. Who are currently the most important people to you?

Hubby and kids. No question.

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?

Technically spndpfrdcrck didn't tag me. But I especially love that she had the guts to twizzle Jared!

15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?

It's not so much the "married" part as much as having someone who cares enough about you to stay with you through thick or thin. That is so worth much more than money.

16. How many children do you want to have, if any?

I never thought about having kids while growing up. Never thought I WOULDN'T have them. Just never thought about it. Just like I didn't think much about getting married. It would either happen -- or not. But when I met my husband, all of a sudden it was like HELL yeah I WANT kids. Very weird. But very good.

If someone had PUSHED me to say how many kids I wanted -- I would have said two. And we have two.

17. What's better, to give or to receive?

Isn't this the same question as the Loving question? See that.

18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?

OMG. Another thinky. It depends? If one loved me back but the other didn't--definitely the one who returned the feelings. If they both did. *shudders* I just don't even want to consider that. I hate hurting people.

19. Would you have 100% safe sex with a stranger for $10,000,000?

Um. Maybe? Depends on the person. And this is not about the money. Or even really the sex. It's more like--why not if I like or am attracted to the person. BUT, if in this theoretical question, I'm married to current Hubby, what his opinion on this is. AND, that doesn't mean I'm into casual sex. It's more like--*whatever* there's no real reason NOT too unless you're already in a committed relationship and the stranger is like, totally gross.

20. What were your parents going to name you if you'd been born the opposite sex?