SPN 6x10 spoilery (less happy)
Dec. 4th, 2010 04:07 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
growyourwingsOk I'm getting sadder. I'm glad I posted my reaction before reading too much online.
Frankly when I started writing my reaction post I was expecting to rant a bit. It started with more rant ... but as it progressed I found many things about it that I enjoyed. I wasn't bored after all. So I re-editted and found more positive to comment on. And I did enjoy it while I was watching it despite some obvious problems. But then again, as I said to someone, I have NO expectations now for liking any S6 episode. Frankly I almost forgot the show was on last night. My husband and I talked about going to the coast for the night and at one point I realized that would mean I'd miss the show. And I was sad when I realized I didn't care that much about missing it.
And later that night as I was going to bed I found myself realizing that fickleone and I never once contacted each other during the show's commercial breaks--in past we could hardly contain ourselves and always had to contact each other to talk during breaks and right after the episode was over. And I kinda shrugged in a bit of sadness when I realized that wasn't happening lately.
Which is what I said in my post as well. I've moved into "I don't care" land. I really fear that many episodes in S6 have just finally broken my obsession with this show.
So I went into last night's episode expecting to NOT like it. I was very relaxed about it because I didn't care that I likely would not like it. So I somehow took off my critical hat.
Plus I didn't want to continue to harsh on people's squee about this season (for those who were enjoying it.)
And now I'm sad and slightly bummed. Because I also do agree with many of the points from some of the negative reactions I'm reading. I agreed with them last night, but I had already chosen to ignore things that would have gotten my dander up. Like my moment of "HUH?" when Castiel turned tail and RAN away from hell hounds?! And how Sam could possibly really be a threat to the angel who is now in charge of Heaven--even if he doesn't sleep. And I even had a moment of wondering how Sam could reach the cages ceiling to paint the devil's trap after just opening his wrist up and then be able to fight in a very badass way afterwards. But again, just decided to sit back and enjoy badass Sam and not worry about how that could happen. And when Castiel got a boner??? Huh? And kissed Meg? I figured the kiss was fandom service and made the instant decision to not judge and just sit back and enjoy it. (Which I did.) And how "easy" it was for Castiel to find Crowley's bones--if it was that easy--why didn't he just do it episodes ago? Was it just because he didn't see the need? Really? No need to remove the King of Hell? But then again, he'd just be replaced with a different leader of Hell so perhaps better the Devil you know? I just decided to take it all at face value and remove my fandom hat. But I certainly cringed during the Meg torture. And the constant lack of explanation/ignoring about Adam.
But in spite of all of what I'm saying above and despite my sadness/bummer feeling after reading various reactions, I am still intrigued and perhaps a little more hopeful and all because of the Dean vs. Grandfather bit. And I did enjoy everything I commented on in my initial post. I've already written off robo!Sam and am awaiting real Sam's return. Although as I said in my first reaction post I truly worry that I might not be able to get my Sam & Dean love back to the same level it was. I truly worry that it's been broken in me and may not be fixable. And I guess the whole point of this post is that I'm even more worried because I'm seeing symptoms of that across many posts. That it's broken and not in a "good" way and that it may not be fixable.
And now I have re-joined the non-squeeful side of things in a very wishy-washy way. I'm that guy in the audience of The Real Ghostbusters that complains about a show when perhaps I should just stop watching. But I can't and (hopefully) won't stop watching. Because this is my SHOW. And because I'm also saying I still see some good in this episode and I truly did enjoy it while I was watching it even if (or perhaps because) I was purposefully ignoring the parts I mentioned above. Plus I'm just REALLY glad that it got me thinking again once I started ignoring the things I don't like about S6.
Overall I'm just sad to see what's happening across fandom with this show. This is the first show that I've so fully participated in fandom with so I didn't live through the X-Files, Buffy, and other shows that had strong starts and fan followings and then somehow languished in mid or late seasons. And I'm sad to think this might be happening with SPN. Even if it goes on. *sighs*
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Frankly when I started writing my reaction post I was expecting to rant a bit. It started with more rant ... but as it progressed I found many things about it that I enjoyed. I wasn't bored after all. So I re-editted and found more positive to comment on. And I did enjoy it while I was watching it despite some obvious problems. But then again, as I said to someone, I have NO expectations now for liking any S6 episode. Frankly I almost forgot the show was on last night. My husband and I talked about going to the coast for the night and at one point I realized that would mean I'd miss the show. And I was sad when I realized I didn't care that much about missing it.
And later that night as I was going to bed I found myself realizing that fickleone and I never once contacted each other during the show's commercial breaks--in past we could hardly contain ourselves and always had to contact each other to talk during breaks and right after the episode was over. And I kinda shrugged in a bit of sadness when I realized that wasn't happening lately.
Which is what I said in my post as well. I've moved into "I don't care" land. I really fear that many episodes in S6 have just finally broken my obsession with this show.
So I went into last night's episode expecting to NOT like it. I was very relaxed about it because I didn't care that I likely would not like it. So I somehow took off my critical hat.
Plus I didn't want to continue to harsh on people's squee about this season (for those who were enjoying it.)
And now I'm sad and slightly bummed. Because I also do agree with many of the points from some of the negative reactions I'm reading. I agreed with them last night, but I had already chosen to ignore things that would have gotten my dander up. Like my moment of "HUH?" when Castiel turned tail and RAN away from hell hounds?! And how Sam could possibly really be a threat to the angel who is now in charge of Heaven--even if he doesn't sleep. And I even had a moment of wondering how Sam could reach the cages ceiling to paint the devil's trap after just opening his wrist up and then be able to fight in a very badass way afterwards. But again, just decided to sit back and enjoy badass Sam and not worry about how that could happen. And when Castiel got a boner??? Huh? And kissed Meg? I figured the kiss was fandom service and made the instant decision to not judge and just sit back and enjoy it. (Which I did.) And how "easy" it was for Castiel to find Crowley's bones--if it was that easy--why didn't he just do it episodes ago? Was it just because he didn't see the need? Really? No need to remove the King of Hell? But then again, he'd just be replaced with a different leader of Hell so perhaps better the Devil you know? I just decided to take it all at face value and remove my fandom hat. But I certainly cringed during the Meg torture. And the constant lack of explanation/ignoring about Adam.
But in spite of all of what I'm saying above and despite my sadness/bummer feeling after reading various reactions, I am still intrigued and perhaps a little more hopeful and all because of the Dean vs. Grandfather bit. And I did enjoy everything I commented on in my initial post. I've already written off robo!Sam and am awaiting real Sam's return. Although as I said in my first reaction post I truly worry that I might not be able to get my Sam & Dean love back to the same level it was. I truly worry that it's been broken in me and may not be fixable. And I guess the whole point of this post is that I'm even more worried because I'm seeing symptoms of that across many posts. That it's broken and not in a "good" way and that it may not be fixable.
And now I have re-joined the non-squeeful side of things in a very wishy-washy way. I'm that guy in the audience of The Real Ghostbusters that complains about a show when perhaps I should just stop watching. But I can't and (hopefully) won't stop watching. Because this is my SHOW. And because I'm also saying I still see some good in this episode and I truly did enjoy it while I was watching it even if (or perhaps because) I was purposefully ignoring the parts I mentioned above. Plus I'm just REALLY glad that it got me thinking again once I started ignoring the things I don't like about S6.
Overall I'm just sad to see what's happening across fandom with this show. This is the first show that I've so fully participated in fandom with so I didn't live through the X-Files, Buffy, and other shows that had strong starts and fan followings and then somehow languished in mid or late seasons. And I'm sad to think this might be happening with SPN. Even if it goes on. *sighs*
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