Another work rank
Jul. 23rd, 2008 05:36 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
growyourwingsI'm sorry to keep doing this, but I have to get this out somehow...
I've just about had it. I've worked for this company for 20 years, through thick and thin and have put up with a lot of crap. I do NOT expect that this company OWEs me anything. In fact I believe that they don't because they've paid me good and generally treated me well.
I don't know if my tolerance is way down or what--but I'm to the point that I'm shoring up my resume and am about to submit it online.
I just spent 20 minutes talking to one of our business sponsors about the fact that a spreadsheet was printed too small. In and of itself the conversation was not bad nor inappropriate. But it's like the straw that's breaking my back. This person is such a major league control freak. Ever item has to be JUST EXACTLY SO. If something is done correctly it's because of the hard work of her department. If something is at fault it's due to the errors of either our IT department or my department. Despite the fact that the information that her department is presenting to her, comes from us. If it's good--they did a good job. If it's bad, we did something wrong.
I keep asking myself if I'm over-reacting. But I just can't get myself to think I'm over-reacting. But perhaps I am. All I know for sure is that line from that old movie "I'm mad as hell and I'm not going to take it anymore." I guess there's a reason that older employees start to act disgruntled. We just can't take the shit anymore after years and years of it.
So I'm definitely putting my resume out. Despite the fact that it would mean giving up loads of paid vacation time, may mean more travel or, if not, lower pay. I just want to feel appreciated rather than looked at like I'm trying to hide something or doing something wrong. For years I've been a highly rated employee and still am, by my department...of course that means nothing to this other area. By definition our department is the magnet for all complaints and I just don't trust that somehow this won't continue. I'm just sick of it.
Of course, after I calm down in the morning I'll probably grin and bare it again--but in the meantime that resume will be out there. If I can figure out Monster.com. Just doing that will make me feel better. When I've thought about doing this before I always remind myself that I'd just be exchanging one set of work problems for a new set somewhere else. But that new set of problems seems awlfully damn enticing at this point.
Of course I have some contacts in community I could also farm for potentials--but all those numbers were in my cell phone which was stolen a few months ago...so I have to scrounge for them through other means.
And of course Bob's at a union meeting tonight. Em's not home. And T's out and about somewhere. I can't burden my mother with this either. And ever since I started immersing myself in work about 5 years ago, I don't have this ready network of let's-go-out-and-get-drunk-cuz-I'm-pissed friends. All my friends work with me and I can't vent about this with them because I have to "set an example."
Ugh.
I used to be a pleasant person, pretty cheerful most of the time. How did that change? I hate getting so pissed that I have to exploded and vent to others...it just feels like imposing or something. Not my style.
Perhaps I've had blinders on. Perhaps this type of work just isn't for me anymore and I should have never gotten away from coding. Computers I understand. People on the other hand....
Someone posted on LJ the other day something about "anyone know C++ and want to move to Boston?" I was almost tempted to reply despite the fact that I haven't coded C++ in 10ish years and would be like a grade-schooler doing so. But chucking everything (not family) and starting all over somewhere? Sounds just dandy to me right now. I really miss coding right about now. Speak to me Unix.
dammit. people suck.
I've just about had it. I've worked for this company for 20 years, through thick and thin and have put up with a lot of crap. I do NOT expect that this company OWEs me anything. In fact I believe that they don't because they've paid me good and generally treated me well.
I don't know if my tolerance is way down or what--but I'm to the point that I'm shoring up my resume and am about to submit it online.
I just spent 20 minutes talking to one of our business sponsors about the fact that a spreadsheet was printed too small. In and of itself the conversation was not bad nor inappropriate. But it's like the straw that's breaking my back. This person is such a major league control freak. Ever item has to be JUST EXACTLY SO. If something is done correctly it's because of the hard work of her department. If something is at fault it's due to the errors of either our IT department or my department. Despite the fact that the information that her department is presenting to her, comes from us. If it's good--they did a good job. If it's bad, we did something wrong.
I keep asking myself if I'm over-reacting. But I just can't get myself to think I'm over-reacting. But perhaps I am. All I know for sure is that line from that old movie "I'm mad as hell and I'm not going to take it anymore." I guess there's a reason that older employees start to act disgruntled. We just can't take the shit anymore after years and years of it.
So I'm definitely putting my resume out. Despite the fact that it would mean giving up loads of paid vacation time, may mean more travel or, if not, lower pay. I just want to feel appreciated rather than looked at like I'm trying to hide something or doing something wrong. For years I've been a highly rated employee and still am, by my department...of course that means nothing to this other area. By definition our department is the magnet for all complaints and I just don't trust that somehow this won't continue. I'm just sick of it.
Of course, after I calm down in the morning I'll probably grin and bare it again--but in the meantime that resume will be out there. If I can figure out Monster.com. Just doing that will make me feel better. When I've thought about doing this before I always remind myself that I'd just be exchanging one set of work problems for a new set somewhere else. But that new set of problems seems awlfully damn enticing at this point.
Of course I have some contacts in community I could also farm for potentials--but all those numbers were in my cell phone which was stolen a few months ago...so I have to scrounge for them through other means.
And of course Bob's at a union meeting tonight. Em's not home. And T's out and about somewhere. I can't burden my mother with this either. And ever since I started immersing myself in work about 5 years ago, I don't have this ready network of let's-go-out-and-get-drunk-cuz-I'm-pissed friends. All my friends work with me and I can't vent about this with them because I have to "set an example."
Ugh.
I used to be a pleasant person, pretty cheerful most of the time. How did that change? I hate getting so pissed that I have to exploded and vent to others...it just feels like imposing or something. Not my style.
Perhaps I've had blinders on. Perhaps this type of work just isn't for me anymore and I should have never gotten away from coding. Computers I understand. People on the other hand....
Someone posted on LJ the other day something about "anyone know C++ and want to move to Boston?" I was almost tempted to reply despite the fact that I haven't coded C++ in 10ish years and would be like a grade-schooler doing so. But chucking everything (not family) and starting all over somewhere? Sounds just dandy to me right now. I really miss coding right about now. Speak to me Unix.
dammit. people suck.
