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growyourwings) wrote2008-01-22 08:20 pm
growyourwings) wrote2008-01-22 08:20 pm
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Heath again...
I know I've already posted on this. But just viewed one of my saved fanvids for Brokeback. Set to the turn of Ever the Same. Seeing Heath play Ennis--man it just hurts to think he's gone. Reading through my flist it's like everyone is having the same reaction--namely WTF? Those were the first words out of my mouth when I first heard it. My daughter says she also reacted with WTF??!!! Part of me wonders if my reaction is the feeling of two people passing. Both Heath and Ennis.
Edit: I just realized another reason why this has hit me so strongly. Brokeback Mountain was the first film in what turned into a greater appreciation of media that explored the entire range of human relationships--including same sex relationships. Brokeback, then QAF, Torchwood, and along the same timeline--slash fanfic. Although I think I was into slash prior to Brokeback by a year or two--but it's all tied together and somehow symbolized in my mind by Brokeback Mountain. And I really, really do not mean because of the "shock" factor or the "tee-hee, omg m/m action" factor. Truly because of the depth of emotion and tragedy that the relationship represented. It touched me so deeply. And while I enjoyed Jake's performance--it was Heath and Ennis that hit me deep in my soul.
Edit: I just realized another reason why this has hit me so strongly. Brokeback Mountain was the first film in what turned into a greater appreciation of media that explored the entire range of human relationships--including same sex relationships. Brokeback, then QAF, Torchwood, and along the same timeline--slash fanfic. Although I think I was into slash prior to Brokeback by a year or two--but it's all tied together and somehow symbolized in my mind by Brokeback Mountain. And I really, really do not mean because of the "shock" factor or the "tee-hee, omg m/m action" factor. Truly because of the depth of emotion and tragedy that the relationship represented. It touched me so deeply. And while I enjoyed Jake's performance--it was Heath and Ennis that hit me deep in my soul.