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growyourwings) wrote2012-10-31 10:12 pm
growyourwings) wrote2012-10-31 10:12 pm
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*sigh* call me Fritz I guess....
I just saw this linked on all_spn and I have to say it really mirrors some of my thoughts these days.
I love SPN and Sam and Dean and will always watch. Will continue to go to cons. Will likely follow Jared and Jensen forever. And will be forever grateful to this show for so many good things and memories.
It's possible something might happen and I'll regain that OMG Oh Noes! Sam & Dean reactions. But with each episode I'm not so sure.
This is not to say that there won't be good (and perhaps great) episodes to come. Nor does it mean that I disliked tonight's episode. It just that I'm not *feeling* it. There was *something* special about SPN that invoked feelings in me that no other show ever had. Even those I really loved. And I'm counting in that list, Star Trek, BSG, Boston Legal, and other shows that I made sure never to miss and that I really loved. SPN hit a nerve that even those other shows ever had. So now that I'm thinking that nerve hasn't been hit for me for a while for this show, it's sad. Now this show is turning into the other shows I really like and watch and yes, love.
I really, really hate to say it - but I'm just not *feeling* it like I did.
You know what keeps going through my head tonight? These lyrics from an old song, "from now on you're only someone that I used to love." It seems so apt to me. I feel I've moved on. Or the show has moved on. Or something. I will always love this show and everything associated with it, but it's also now "someone that I used to love." If that even makes sense.
And as I think about my relationship with this show over the years, I get those same feelings you get for an old love that you will always love, but that is no longer "that love" for you. And funny enough, just feeling that sense of old-love melancholy, brings back the feelings that I so miss about this show. Ack! I'm feeling very disloyal right now. :/
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I love SPN and Sam and Dean and will always watch. Will continue to go to cons. Will likely follow Jared and Jensen forever. And will be forever grateful to this show for so many good things and memories.
It's possible something might happen and I'll regain that OMG Oh Noes! Sam & Dean reactions. But with each episode I'm not so sure.
This is not to say that there won't be good (and perhaps great) episodes to come. Nor does it mean that I disliked tonight's episode. It just that I'm not *feeling* it. There was *something* special about SPN that invoked feelings in me that no other show ever had. Even those I really loved. And I'm counting in that list, Star Trek, BSG, Boston Legal, and other shows that I made sure never to miss and that I really loved. SPN hit a nerve that even those other shows ever had. So now that I'm thinking that nerve hasn't been hit for me for a while for this show, it's sad. Now this show is turning into the other shows I really like and watch and yes, love.
I really, really hate to say it - but I'm just not *feeling* it like I did.
You know what keeps going through my head tonight? These lyrics from an old song, "from now on you're only someone that I used to love." It seems so apt to me. I feel I've moved on. Or the show has moved on. Or something. I will always love this show and everything associated with it, but it's also now "someone that I used to love." If that even makes sense.
And as I think about my relationship with this show over the years, I get those same feelings you get for an old love that you will always love, but that is no longer "that love" for you. And funny enough, just feeling that sense of old-love melancholy, brings back the feelings that I so miss about this show. Ack! I'm feeling very disloyal right now. :/
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